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Tobi and Friends by bigel-doc Tobi and Friends :iconbigel-doc:bigel-doc 0 2 Selective Perception by bigel-doc Selective Perception :iconbigel-doc:bigel-doc 0 4 lost highway by bigel-doc lost highway :iconbigel-doc:bigel-doc 3 4 sans_titre 6 by bigel-doc sans_titre 6 :iconbigel-doc:bigel-doc 0 0 I Don_t Wanna Be Buried by bigel-doc I Don_t Wanna Be Buried :iconbigel-doc:bigel-doc 0 0 aloneinacruelworld by bigel-doc aloneinacruelworld :iconbigel-doc:bigel-doc 1 2 emptiness_2 by bigel-doc emptiness_2 :iconbigel-doc:bigel-doc 0 2 emptiness by bigel-doc emptiness :iconbigel-doc:bigel-doc 0 2 homesick by bigel-doc homesick :iconbigel-doc:bigel-doc 0 2 alien2 by bigel-doc alien2 :iconbigel-doc:bigel-doc 2 0
After that night
After that night:
Who would have thought, that this story continues? Everything had been done, what could have been done. It wasn´t any help. It was over. I failed. There wasn´t anything left to say. Anything left to do. Anything left to excuse.
But I´m sitting here and I´m writing. What had happened? In the meantime, 6-7-8 years had passed. A couple of dilletantish attempts to send myself to kingdom come followed. I had good times, bad times, good times, bad times, good……But nothing changed. Just the scars became more numerous. I sat there, trapped, surrounded by invisible walls, captured by invisible creatures. I didn’t know, why I was trapped. I just knew, that it must have been my fault.
Just until one day….I opened my eyes. I saw clearly for the first time of my life. And suddenly, I was aware of what had bared myself from living. The walls, the creatures, the enemy: XX
All the time, it has been me, who was my enemy and my walls. But in a co
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nach der nacht
Wer hätte gedacht, dass  die Geschichte weitergehen würde? Es war doch alles getan, was getan werden konnte. Es hat nichts gebracht. Es war alles zu Ende. Ich hatte versagt. Es gab nichts mehr zu sagen. Nichts mehr zu tun. Nichts zu entschuldigen.
Und doch sitze ich nun hier und schreibe. Was war geschehen? Mittlerweile sind 6-7-8 Jahre vergangen. Es folgten weitere stümperhafte Versuche, mich ins Jenseits zu befördern. Es ging auf und ab und auf und ab und auf….Doch es änderte sich nichts. Nur die Narben wurden mehr. Ich saß gefangen, in unsichtbaren Mauern, von unbekannten Wesen. Ich wusste nicht, warum ich gefangen war. Ich wusste nur, dass es meine Schuld gewesen sein musste.
Bis eines Tages…ich die Augen öffnete. Zum ersten Mal in meinem Leben sah ich klar. Ich erkannte, was mich die ganze Zeit am Leben gehindert hatte. Die Mauern, die Wesen, der Feind: XX
Die ganze Zeit über war ich selbst mein Feind und meine Mauern gew
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wrong way? by bigel-doc wrong way? :iconbigel-doc:bigel-doc 0 2 Pythagorean Theorem by bigel-doc Pythagorean Theorem :iconbigel-doc:bigel-doc 0 2 Tobi Tasse R.I.P. by bigel-doc Tobi Tasse R.I.P. :iconbigel-doc:bigel-doc 1 0 Tobi Tasse by bigel-doc Tobi Tasse :iconbigel-doc:bigel-doc 2 0


02 by 4bsinthe 02 :icon4bsinthe:4bsinthe 3 0 3D Ice by erezmarom 3D Ice :iconerezmarom:erezmarom 901 51 the seventh one by arbebuk the seventh one :iconarbebuk:arbebuk 297 34 :: mission completed . . . :: by HarisDrako :: mission completed . . . :: :iconharisdrako:HarisDrako 5,503 755 In the Flesh IX by AlisonS11605 In the Flesh IX :iconalisons11605:AlisonS11605 28 18 The forgotten dark by PanCthulhu The forgotten dark :iconpancthulhu:PanCthulhu 6 1 582 - and then he kissed me by SlevinAaron
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gay art homosexual paintings men hugs nude naked by shharc gay art homosexual paintings men hugs nude naked :iconshharc:shharc 57 9 self ink wash by davidroman self ink wash :icondavidroman:davidroman 221 45 Drowning in love by lora-zombie Drowning in love :iconlora-zombie:lora-zombie 1,445 34 OCEAN BLUE LITTLE ANGELS by lora-zombie OCEAN BLUE LITTLE ANGELS :iconlora-zombie:lora-zombie 532 15 The Sea Inside by lora-zombie The Sea Inside :iconlora-zombie:lora-zombie 321 9 Fire--Ice--Prince-Aasha-Moon-by-CWilson by AEtherism Fire--Ice--Prince-Aasha-Moon-by-CWilson :iconaetherism:AEtherism 2 0 Jotun-Dara-Khest-by-CWilson by AEtherism Jotun-Dara-Khest-by-CWilson :iconaetherism:AEtherism 1 0 My budgie and me... by Filiana My budgie and me... :iconfiliana:Filiana 157 136


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Current Residence: hospital
... I´m exhausted and I´m losing my creativity. Damn it, I need a plan!


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